Beautifulife

hey..hey..hey.. don't go anywhere..! stay tune! I know you may think this is not important :D

well.., still.., It's interesting to find out the answer of my previous post

Truth number uno:
"I always have bad feelings on people I just knew,
that's why, it's hard for me to be talk active to new comers"
This is half true, the truth is I always felt that way, but now I don't. My friends have taught me many things about friendship. So.., newcomer? Not a big deal!

Truth number two:
"I'm sick, I'm counting my days to death.."
yeah..this one is true, I'm sick! I mean, I'm not healthy in many ways, physically and psychologically (it doesn't mean I'm insane :P). I'm so lazy to do sport, that makes me sick physically, moreover, I consume nearly everything that tastes good to me :D
I'm psychologically sick. That means, my heart is always full of unimportant things to think..!
"I'm counting my days to death.." well.. everyone is..!!

Truth number three:
"I'm in love, really in love, that it makes my head feels spinned around and around"
This is ABSOLUTELY true!
ha..ha..ha.. don't think I'm in love with a man! (or am I? )
Actually, I'm in love with my organization, a place where I meet incredible people, They're so Young and Hustle!! (Go LSK!GO!!) :D
but, what makes my head spinned is, that I must be off from LSK for a moment, until I finish my thesis. I should have graduated my study a year ago :( thesis makes me dizzy, but I know I can, Gambatte ne!!

Truth number four:
"I'm a good listener, but I don't like to be a listener" this is half true
I mean..yeah, I'm a good listener, sometimes I feel so glad that my friends trust me to listen to them, but when I'm not in a good mood, then I'm not in a good shape to be a listener , I thought you would agree with me, wouldn't you?

Truth number five:
"I always watch people around me, I make comparison, just to find the true me, but most of the time, I get lost.." is half true, I don't always get lost, It happens sometimes, when I lose my confidence.. that's normal, right?

Truth number six:
"Jealousy is something built in, I can't handle it"
this is bad! but it's true.

Truth number seven:
"I'm a photography maniac, but I'm not good at it"
well..well..well.. I like photography, but I'm not maniac!
I just like it, and I'm not really good at it

Truth number eight:
"Whenever I'm down, I just want to escape, as far away as possible, to my dream land, start over.."
I always feel this, but I'm trying to cope with it..don't worry!

Truth number nine:
"I always smile at people, but I often wonder, why some of them keep asking me to smile more, I thought that perhaps I look so crusty"
This fact sometimes pisses me off! but maybe, it's little hard for me to keep smiling.. I mean..what would people say if I keep smiling whether or not anyone exists in front of me.. (isn't it a bit weird if you smile to no one? normal people would consider you as abnormal one)

Truth number ten:
"I like to use comma and many dots in my writing... (I don't know what's the point of this sentence ^_^v)"
hmm..this is true.. just to make my writing dramatic (I'm not sure whether it works or not ^_^v)

Truth number eleven:
"I don't like someone who's fond of arguing someone else, it sucks"
I thought you couldn't agree more..hohoho.. no one likes stubborn people!

Truth number twelve:
"I like to write, but I'm always afraid of what people might think about me"
true!

Truth number thirteen:
"I'm loyal to anyone I'm told to be.."
true, but sometimes it has bad impact too, I become a bit less objective in seeing things, hmm.. I'll try to improve it!

Truth number fourteen:
"I like Japan, I want to live there after I finish my study here.."
this is half true, coz I'm still after it! whoaa tell me more...!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh...
My head keeps spinning around!!
Revising research design is not as easy as I thought.. T_T

run out of ideas..

What motivates me to go on is just an imagination of freedom..
I just can't wait to be active in my organization again, and I can't wait to do some extra activities I have planned..

Hhh..ideas..come to me... whoaa tell me more...!

How far do you know yourself?
what is your weakness
what's your power
what do you really want
what do you really have to do
your responsible
your right
what's going on inside your body
what's inside your head
why did you choose to do something or not to do

The matter is, how well you know yourself determines the choice of attitude you show to yourself and to others

two important points, physical and psychological details can be the opening step to go through you

My teacher ever said, the moeslem scientists who lived before us, liked to allocate their special time just to find out who they really were. And they did that since earlier of their life, that's why, when they grew up, they succeeded to live out of the box and finally led themselves to spectacular achievements, that it sometimes makes us wonder, were they really as normal human being as we are? they're just so extraordinary.

Among the sparkling stars, there were some stars which sparkle brighter, why don't we make ourselves to be the brighter ones?

wasn't it our prophet, Rasulullah, who had intiated a way to dive inside himself, that he liked to spare his time just to be alone, to find the answer of a question "why was I created?" whoaa tell me more...!

I have never felt bored to see the sky.

How the stars are sparkling, how the moon is shining..

sometimes, when I find the night is so beautiful, I just can't hold myself to gaze at the stars, even when I'm riding my motorcycle on my way home from campus.

I remember when I was a little girl, my sister and I usually went upstairs, laid down on the terrace just to wait for falling stars..hmm..

Seeing the stars and moon at night makes me feel so close to the Creator

He's the Greatest Creator in the whole planet, He's the only one..How I miss You.. T_T

I think oneday, If I have to build a house, I'll set it to have an open terrace upstairs, so I can see the sky at night with my beloved husband.. :P

It reminds me to the first song taught by my English teacher when I was a little cute girl :D

Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.
Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are!

In the dark blue sky so deep
Through my curtains often peep
For you never close your eyes
’Til the morning sun does rise
Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are

Twinkle, twinkle, little star
How I wonder what you are whoaa tell me more...!

I remember some chats that I had with my classmates in senior high school, 4 years ago. "what is the job that you don't like the most?" one of us said

"A policeman!!" a boy exclaimed enthusiastically.. hearing that, all of us straightly laughed out loud "ha..ha..ha..why?"
"they always ask money from the people they catch! I was one of their victims!" he cried

Yeah..it sucks..

I thought that nearly all of us there had ever been caught by policeman. Various reasons, some of us got caught because we didn't bring our driving license (or maybe some of us didn't really have one :D), the others got caught because of crashing other people's rides, and the simplest reason (but it's the most important I think) is that we didn't use any helmet (because we were afraid it would mess up our hair style :P
As a result, we had to pay a sum of money, we were so broke then...

Not long after that, another friend asked again "what other jobs that you think you don't want to be?"

"A TEACHER!!"there were more than one persons shouted this answer (including me!).. it seemed that we really had a huge grudge on our teacher..

hhh..what could I say..

We were wrong.. definitely wrong!

Now I realise that, we said it because we didn't like rules, we didn't like homeworks, we didn't like to be just listener (you know, traditional teaching style), we were bored, and we faced that everyday (except holiday).

Anyway, the point is, it's neither all the students' fault, nor the teacher's

One of my best teachers said "the first thing that we have to teach to our students is moral. What would this country be if the youth are smart and brilliant, but badly immoral"

You know, the funny thing is, nearly all my friends involved in that chat (the boys), finally applied for policeman after the graduation! Yeah, the job that they claimed as the worst job ever..

and I, who considered "teaching" is annoying job, now have become a teacher.

Well, in the end, Allah just wants us to understand something..

I learn many things as a teacher, and I know my students better, cause I have ever been a student (I hope they don't think I'm boring :D)

and surely, my friends would also learn many things, they can be better policemen..

what about you? what do you think the worst job is? whoaa tell me more...!

Everyone likes the word "Free".
I know, even you won't deny that (will you?:D)

What do you think if you're free to do anything you want?
If you are a student, then you are free to present anytime you are in the mood.

You are an activist, feel free to not go home, you may come whenever you feel you need to.
If there are many rides parked outside the mall, take whichever attracts you.
Or if you meet many kinds of man or woman, you can choose whoever you like to be your spouse, then when it comes to boredom, you can replace her/him with another one, leave the other

I wonder, what kind of life would that be? One thing for sure, we can live that way! IF.. we are the only person expected in this world.

Yes, our freedom is limited by others'

But if we think deeply, this life is all about freedom.

People work really hard, to get as much money as possible, so that they can live freely as an economic human being.

My mother cooks, to be free from hunger

even a little baby tries so hard to walk, stumble and fall, just to be free to go anywhere he likes to go. This desire is so strong that it doesn't make him give up..(can you imagine if we gave up walking?)

And the most certain thing in the world, death, is one way chosen by some people to free themselves from troubles in life.. (well, I don't suggest you to choose this one)

Finally, I put my huge admiration on people who run after the death for freedom to see their God. Who are they?

They are Mujahideen whoaa tell me more...!

I will tell you several things which are half true about me..

I always have bad feelings on people I just knew,
that's why, it's hard for me to be talk active to new comers

I'm sick, I'm counting my days to death..

I'm in love, really in love, that it makes my head feels spinned around and around

I'm a good listener, but I don't like to be a listener

I always watch people around me, I make comparison, just to find the true me, but most of the time, I get lost..

Jealousy is something built in, I can't handle it

I'm a photography maniac, but I'm not good at it

Whenever I'm down, I just want to escape, as far away as possible, to my dream land, start over..

I always smile at people, but I often wonder, why some of them keep asking me to smile more, I thought that perhaps I look so crusty

I like to use comma and many dots in my writing... (I don't know what's the point of this sentence ^_^v)

I don't like someone who's fond of arguing someone else, it sucks

I like to write, but I'm always afraid of what people might think about me

I'm loyal to anyone I'm told to be..

I like Japan, I want to live there after I finish my study here..


Well, I think it's enough. So.. can you guess which ones are true and half true..? ;) whoaa tell me more...!

Huh.. I don't really like to write this topic actually, but, however, this phenomenon can be interesting to discuss, right?

Why do people lie..?
Has anyone of you there ever made a lie..? (point your finger!)
...
nope?
...
that's a lie already..!

After reading some articles here, there, and somewhere else, I can conclude the 5 main reasons why people lie..

Here we go..

Mostly, people lie to protect themselves. These people are afraid of consequences. They just want to avoid punishment they deserve to get.

The second reason why people lie is to protect someone else. Is it a white lie?
Well, lie is a lie, no matter it's black or white, red or yellow, whatever the color is. When you have someone you love, and suddenly, she/he is in trouble, what would you do if the only thing that can save her/him is lie..
could there be that sort of thing??hmm..

To be liked. This is a bad thing guys! Are you trying to be someone else, wearing the mask and drown yourself in Cinderella gown? just to be liked by everyone else? However, it can be the first step of double personality symptom..

Fear of loss. Perhaps you have something that actually is not yours. The computer you use to browse, the headphone on your head, the clothes you wear, the shoes, pen, do you remember anything which is not yours?
But, lie because of fear of loss can also be a lie to avoid losing someone that is so precious.. it's another case.

The biggest and the worst lie is the lie to destruct others. Well, I could say that this is the worst lie ever. Can you imagine? for this kind of lie, there might be 2,500 people like you, died. What I meant here is the issue of the existence of weapons of mass destruction in Afghanistan. Did you really believe they really exist in Afghanistan?

Ha..ha..ha.. Bush got you punk'd!

In the end, guys, just to remind myself and you all my friends, that when we lie, we are the real victim in the first place. Lie makes you feel uncomfortable, afraid of one day it might revealed..

So, don't lie.. and refuse to be lied..!! long live anti-liars!! whoaa tell me more...!

If I could be invisible, I would go to an airport, bring all my luggage and swiftly fly to Surabaya, then I'll go to Singapore and finally away to Narita Airport, Japan...
And when I arrive in Japan, I'll switch myself to visible mode..
take a little walk at a bank under cherry blossom trees with their falling blossoms.. waaaaa... make me pounding..!!

whoaa tell me more...!